I went to the temple with Marrit yesterday and of course cried going into the celestial room. Marrit said "It's okay to cry Mom, but then you have to pull up your big girl panties and go on." I expect that I'll still be crying and pulling up my big girl panties on a regular basis.
I have been here in Payson for a few days now and it's easier without all of the reminders. But I know I have to go home sometime and get back to the reality of my situation. Brooklynn and Parker have eased the pain, they are so young and innocent. Parker brought me down his stuffed walrus "for comfort Grammy." Brooklynn sits on my lap and snuggles with me. She makes you forget that all is not right with the my world.
I am hoping we can ride down to the valley and shop for me a computer. Mine is so sad and slow. I have looked and looked at all the info and found the Levono seems to be all I would need for the money they want for them. Wish I could find a good deal. We shall see. Michelle is coming down Friday I think to visit and take me home. I don't want to go back to the cold weather. It is about 69 70 degrees here and feels so nice.
Love to all, Mom
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