Mike got out of the hospital Sunday. He didn't feel real great and hasn't felt very good since. Monday he decided he didn't want to continue with chemo. It was a hard decision for him. Since beginning chemo he has not felt well at all. We are hoping that by stopping the chemo he will not be so sick. We pray for time to do some things he wants to do. He doesn't want to do anything great or expensive. He just wants to see the grandkids play sports or go to their concerts.
Today we went for labs and an appointment with Dr. Anwar. He told us that, "Chemo or no chemo, the goal for Mike is to make him as comfortable as possible." and "chemo or no chemo the tumor will grow." He made arrangements for Mike to have hydration on Mondays and Wednesdays at the Infusion Center. This was my biggest worry because in 2002 Mike had his colon removed and hydration has always been a problem.
After hydration we hurried home because I had my hair dresser (Meleese Bishop) come down and cut his hair. He was really exhuasted and eventually threw up. His stomach is still very upset and he doesnt' feel good at all.
I hate this. I hate that he feels so awful. I hate that he has this horrible disease and mad that there is basically nothing anyone can do. I hate the word cancer and I hate the word hate.
Keep praying for us inspite of my tirade. It's good to have a blog and sometimes it's good to say what you feel.
Love to all, Mom
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